Friday, July 27, 2012

The Eternal Scar

Today I listened to my husband give a message about Jesus crying out on the cross, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?"  He shared that he believes Jesus cried out "My God" twice because the Lord Jesus was forsaken on the cross by both God the Father and God the Holy Spirit, leaving Him to die for our sins forsaken by both man and God, totally alone.

Immediately my mind flashed back to an instant over twenty five years ago.  Our oldest daughter was about three and she had fallen while running down a sidewalk.  When she fell, the lateral incisors of her upper teeth cracked above the gum-line and they had to be removed.

We took her to the dentist, who had a strict, a VERY STRICT rule about no "Mommies" in the room with the children.  I had to sit in the waiting room with my husband as the dentist extracted the teeth.

I could hear my beautiful little girl screaming for her mommy even out into the waiting room.  I believe that the pain I felt at hearing those cries were no less painful to me than the fear and abandonment she felt in that dentist chair.

Even after all these years, after these decades, I cannot think of that afternoon without bitter tears.  I have always felt as if I let my little girl down, as if I should have barged in that room to "save her" from that mean old dentist.  The truth is, he was doing exactly what needed to be done for her good.  But those painful moments have lasted far longer in my heart than they did in her mouth.  The memory haunts me often and I never remember it without tears.

It has been speculated that perhaps Calvary was not just a particular point in time, but to God it is eternal.  Perhaps somehow there is forever a cross in the heart of God whereby God the Father and God the Spirit will forever know the pain of the forsaken Lord Jesus crying out in anguish.

Just as for all eternity there will be wounds upon the hands and feet and side of the Lord Jesus, perhaps there will also be this spiritual scar in the Trinity.  Up until that moment God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit had only known perfect oneness and unity.  But on the cross of Calvary that unity and oneness was torn apart so that we, undeserving as we are, could by the grace and mercy of God, be entered into that unity.  While our God is a god full of "joy unspeakable,"  maybe somewhere deep in the heart of God, a cross still stands.


"For He hath made Him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; 
that we might be made the righteousness of God in Him."
2Corinthians 5:21

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